Fandom | Cast: Final Fantasy XII, Vaan.
Notes: Was having a super cranky afternoon, then saw this and decided that I needed to do that pose with a guy. I started just drawing it and it turned into Vaan. The ragedoodle looked okay, so I coloured it. The end. Took about an hour all told.

Been a while.

FFXII - Accidentally Vaan )

@[ profile] ff_press: [FFXII/Tactics] [personal profile] justira: Dark Knight Gabranth (G)

Daily Doodle: Of course he's a Dark Knight. Of course.


The thing is, Tactics style is apparently fabulous for displaying shapely male posterior (hint: bottom left). And APPARENTLY I now have some kind of Noah FETISH (courtesy of [personal profile] chaosraven NO DOUBT) and got it into my head at some point, or maybe [personal profile] renay gave me the idea, to thus showcase Noah. We never see his ass, but I am willing to bet it is pretty damn fine. His calves came out pretty well turned, too.

The design is meant to be more or less in the spirit of previous job class porn entries. The design is obviously taken from Gabranth's armour, with simplification inspiration (and ideas for how to simplify Noah's face) from the Revenant Wings Gabranth art. Modified to look a little closer to the standard War of the Lions Dark Knight — the... things... on Noah's legs (tassets? cuisses? what the hell are they?) were transformed into the flary tassets of the male Dark Knight (though I kept a simplified version of the design from Gabranth's). The ridiculous crowny things on his poleyns are now the (embroidered) boot cuffs of the female Knight. (I have something of a habit of borrowing from both genders' outfits indiscriminately, though I apparently particularly enjoy putting little touches from lady costumes on the gentlemen.) I tried to work in bitty spikes on his pauldrons (quite bitty).

I had the damnedest time trying to get any kind of resemblance in the Tactics style — the faces consist of a generic-across-characters eye style, NO nose, and minimal mouth. What the hell am I supposed to do with that? Ah, I tried. He rather resembles a Beoulve, though — I smell an AU.

This did turn out more than a little busy without the colours I was too lazy to apply — those would have delineated the shapes and muted the lines. But overall, quite fun, definitely going in the queue to clean up and colour someday.

Time: 1.5ish hours, not counting the time I spent staring off into space.


Daily Doodle: FFXII/FF Tactics - Dark Knight Gabranth )
@[ profile] ff_press: [FFXII] [personal profile] justira: Larsa portrait (G)

Daily Doodle: OKAY. I have always found Larsa EXCEEDINGLY difficult. Exceedingly. What I sacrificed in time on this one, well... I'm not sure the likeness makes up for it, but it sure as diddly is the best I've done for him so far. Suggestions on the likeness welcome — I know the lighting/shading is a little funky, and suggestions there are always appreciated as well, but I can generally figure that out if I work at it hard enough, while the secrets of likeness just plain elude me. Anyway. Here he is, my favourite 12-year-old in the universe. (Boy am I having fun trying to write him in the ridiculously political sequel to Alchemies...)
Time: 40-50 mins

Daily Doodle: FFXII - Larsa )
@[ profile] ff_press: [FFXII:OGC] [personal profile] justira: Vaan portrait (G)

Daily Doodle: Quickie portrait. I must have gotten quite a bit faster — and maybe a little better? I drew him rather surly, but it's a much closer resemblance in that little time than I've manged before, I think... who knew drawing every day for a year would work >.>

... actually, holy crap guys. It HAS been a year, almost! This is doodle #354, I think. Dang.
Time: ~15 mins

Daily Doodle: [Daily Doodle]  )
@[ profile] ff_press: [Recs] [personal profile] justira: 5 fics, 1 illustrated fic, 1 comic, 1 art (FFVI, FFVIII, FFX, FFXII)

Wow! That weekend sucked! I don't know why I'm having such a terrible year! This reccing thing is fast becoming some kind of Dealing Mechanism. Well! Last call for DOINK! Final Fantasy exchange signups -- they're closing!

This appears to be my self-indulgence installment. One such indulgence is apparently Ashe? It's funny, she's not my favourite character in FFXII (I don't dislike her, I do find her interesting, but there are definitely others I like much more) and yet I apparently get the hugest kick out of a well-done Ashe in fic. Huh.

[Art] FFVI - SAND IN MY BOOT (Kefka) by [ profile] muura
Rating | Warnings: G, no warnings
Notes: FFEX 2007 Chocobo Down — Kefka

Squee: A classic line/scene in an awesome style! I adore this artist's bright colours and unique look — both look awesome on Kefka, and there's something about they way this is drawn that brings Amano's design to vibrant, vibrant life. Kefka's expression and petulance are perfect.

[Illustrated Fic] FFVI - Spaces (Celes/Locke) by [personal profile] seventhe and [ profile] safety_caesars
Rating | Warnings: PG13, spoilers through the end of the game.
Notes: FFEX 2007 Gift for [personal profile] lassarinaLocke/Celes. I would prefer a romantic relationship (explicit content utterly optional), although it's up to you whether it's an established relationship or one that is in the process of growing. I'd really love to see something about how they negotiate the rough spots that are part of any relationship, given all his scars and her general lack of ability to deal with emotions and things that cannot be categorized. Meta is always a plus. 4,700 words + 3 illustrations
Summary: A moment between Locke and Celes, as they try to fit their relationship into and around the holes in their lives.

Squee: There's something very fleshed-out and full about the feel of this story, especially with the pictures interleavened — all the little details, weaving together post-game meta and Celes's feelings and hints of a wider plot into something that really feels like a slice of life: four-dimensional and quietly vivid. The illustrations match the mood perfectly and are well-executed and lovely in their own right. I love how magic is presented as a lost sense to Celes; how the characters — the world — deal with that loss. Both Celes and Locke are great here, but Celes as the POV character really shines. Their dynamic is excellent, the way they dance around each other and are still so honest and direct.

[Comic] FFVIII - On The Run (Zell, Selphie, Irvine, some surprises) by [ profile] darthneko
Rating | Warnings: PG13 (minor swearing), spoilers through Galbadia sort of
Notes: FFEX 2009 Gift for [ profile] wallwalkerZell, Selphie and Irvine. Laying low during a mission gone horribly wrong, licking their wounds (so to speak) and making plans to get out of trouble. 4 pages

Squee: Oh my god, oh my god, the last page. The tension builds so excellently through the first pages, and then the last page is— man, I am not going to spoil it. It's just worth it. What I really love about this little comic is how it gives such an intense slice of an alternate reality — the minute I saw this I immediately could imagine all sorts of things to fill in the before and after the story — or, better yet, what this awesome artist would come up with. It's amazing how much storytelling and worldbuilding this artist manages to pack into so few pages, and layout-wise I love the first and last pages especially, how they mirror each other.

[Fic] FFVIII - Gefälschte (Squall/Laguna) by [ profile] sumthinlikhuman
Rating | Warnings: NC17 like woah, hinty spoilers for their relationship
Notes: FFEX 2007 Chocobo Down — Squall and Laguna. Gen or Slash, any rating. 1,648 words
Summary: He looks like her. I shouldn't be thinking like this.

Squee: This story is ugly in the best way. It's harsh and sharp and unlovely and — for this ship? — perfect. The relationship is broken and dysfunctional and strangely intense, all of which exactly hits the spot for my Squall/Laguna. This take on Laguna is very conflicted and bitter, which is different from most of the Laguna I've read before — and I like it. There's something showcasing his weaknesses here that strikes me as just right; and the way those echo off Squall. It's wrong all over, and I love it.

[Fic] FFVIII - The Worth of Memory (Quistis/Rinoa, Xu, Squall, Kadowaki) by [personal profile] seventhe
Rating | Warnings:
Notes: FFEX 2009 Gift for [ profile] aesriellaQuistis, with Xu, Rinoa, Seifer or Irvine, recovering from, working through or living the immediate aftermath of a difficult or draining experience with a GF, be it junctioning, withdrawal, an experiment or otherwise. Quiet, gentle romance, please. Additional prompts: Hands, farsighted, double vision (figurative or literal), sun on the water, understanding. 3,400 words
Summary: The Guardian Forces take memories as currency, but some ask for more than others.

Squee: OKAY so it's really hard to rec this properly qithout spoiling it? There's an excellent Quistis, there's gut-punching Quistis/Rinoa (you'll know it when you see it), there's GF and memory and Sorceress/Knight meta, there's hinty-hinty FFVI tidbits — really, I love it. The way Quistis's memory fragments is so excellently handled, and I love how differently various characters respond to it. The payoff is great; I reread this thing several times to make sure I got everything ♥

[Fic] FFX - On the Precipice of the World (Yuna, Rikku, Tidus, Cast) by [ profile] cyrnelle
Rating | Warnings: PG. Explicit spoilers through Gagazet, vague for everything after.
Notes: FFEX 2009 Gift for [ profile] xianghuaI think the culture of the summoners is fascinating. Why do some summoners have tons of guardians and others one or none? What makes someone decide to become a summoner — and how does the church of the summoners keep it from being suicide by giant monster for every emo idiot who comes along? My favourite characters are Yuna and Tidus, and I think the way that their relationship echoes, in some ways, the relationships of their fathers throughout X is really interesting. 6,400 words
Summary: The closer they get to Zanarkand, the harder it gets to let go.

Squee: This piece is very quiet and introspective — which, considering the POV characters are Rikku and Tidus, is quite a neat trick to pull off so well. As suggested by the prompt, this discusses Spira and summoning culture — I particularly like a scene near the beginning with Rikku running after a minor character — it's unique and insightful. Overall this story is a lovely little breather, with great voices for all the characters. It's touching and poignant without being overwhelming — it feels like the worried, anxious calm before the storm.

[Fic] FFXII - By Halves (Ashe/Rasler) by [ profile] mithrigil
Rating | Warnings: PG13, very very vague spoilers so not really?
Notes: FFEX 2009 Gift for [ profile] churchedAshe/Rasler, their last night together. Max rating, R. 1,000 words
Summary: On traps, and relics, and things neither will say.

Squee: This story has a kind of stark sensuality that's absolutely lovely. It's the starkness that gets me, how real and immediate this feels, unadorned but beautiful. Ashe is perfect here, as is the mood, taut and slightly sullen and quietly desperate and fierce. I love the unresolved feeling at the end, perfectly suited to the piece. If I had to pick one word? Effective. So very effective.

[Fic] FFXII - Political Considerations (Ashe/Balthier) by [ profile] owlmoose
Rating | Warnings: PG13, spoilers for Balthier's backstory and vague for the end of the game
Notes: FFEX 2009 Gift for [personal profile] lassarinaBalthier/Ashe. Romantic relationship preferred, explicit content optional. A big caveat to start this request: I hate submissive Ashe with the fire of a thousand suns, and I very much dislike it when a fic hand-waves away issues that prevent them from living Happily Ever After OMG (things like her throne, and his refusal to be chained down.) Things I dislike out of the way, let's talk about what I do like: I love them snarking. I love them being bittersweet. I love Balthier's performative aspects, and Ashe's need for personal control (because she doesn't get to control much else...) I'd really like to see something that focused on these - maybe a hunt, or perhaps they get separated from the party, or even (post-game-end) he comes by to visit her through some clever ploy or ruse that is unnecessarily elaborate. Or you could go the route where he's been captured for piracy within the bounds of Dalmasca and Ashe metes out an appropriate punishment. :) 5,018 words
Summary: A year after Ashe's coronation, she faces up to some realities of her position.

Squee: Another piece with an awesome Ashe. I love her here: strong and practical, direct in her desires and her politicking, independent and demanding. This story addresses the realities of this ship with grace and care and realism — I particularly love the political conversation Ashe and Balthier have on the Coast. So very satisfying a read!

@[ profile] ff_press: [Recs] [personal profile] justira: 5 fics, 2 arts (FFI, FFIV, FFVI, FFVIII, FFX-2, FFXII)

I'm having a terrible week and DOINK! signups are on! SO what time is it? That's right! FFEX reccing time! Behold the amazing things FFEX has brought forth! DOES IT MAKE YOU WANT TO JOIN THE PARTY OR WHAT. You can learn about the exchange at [community profile] ff_exchange or [ profile] ff_exchange /shameless plug

But seriously, I never cease to be delighted by the amazing things people have made. Have some recs =)

[Art] FFI - Sunset hobbies (Red Mage, Black Mage, White Mage) by [ profile] tlc010
Rating | Warnings: G, no warnings
Notes: FFEX 2007 Gift for [ profile] admiral_jRed Mage/Black Mage/White Mage. Mixed genders, please, and avoid 8-Bit Theater as inspiration. Beyond that, go nuts

Squee: Straight up: One of my favourite pieces of FF art EVER. And it's for an early, underloved game, no less! This thing has probably been recced all over the place and seen by everyone but I DON'T CARE because it deserves the attention and if anyone missed it they need to see it immediately. Besides the incredible quality of the art, I love that the artist flipped the usual genders for white and black mages — male white mage! female black mage! LITTLE BABY CHICOBO. The costume designs are excellent; they really feel like something people might actually wear and travel and go adventuring in. The lighting is amazing, and I adore the red mage doing his wood-carvy thing in the background. Not enough hearts in the world.

[Fic] FFIV - Under Fire (Rydia) by [ profile] stealth_noodle
Rating | Warnings: PG, spoilers through the Feymarch
Notes: FFEX 2009 Gift for [ profile] sister_coyoteRydia. Rydia delights me with her strength, her courage and her spirit. Anything that highlights her personality would make me very happy, whether it was Rydia on an adventure or just a slice-of-life piece. I'm a sucker for Rydia/Edge, but pairing is not necessary; gen would also be fine, or friendship-fic with just about anyone. 6,940 words
Summary: With the aid of her Eidolons, Rydia makes a perilous journey across the Underworld to reunite with her friends.

Squee: This is all Rydia, Rydia and eidolons, and the Rydia is perfect; exactly as I could imagine her being at this point in her life. Young but full of arcane knowledge, a little uncertain but endlessly brave, stubborn and smart and surer of the eidolons than she is of people. The prose here rolls comfortably along with a great voice and really amazing little pearls of simile and imagery; there are individual personalities and quirks for each of the eidolons; and as a bonus there is even some meta! But mostly it is the story of Rydia re-emerging, and it is wonderful.

[Fic] FFVI - Dissolution (Edgar/Sabin) by [personal profile] seventhe
Rating | Warnings: NC17. Spoilers for Figaro and twin storyline. Twincest, questionable consent, sex between minors (they're 17). As the aithor says, this story rolled in a pile of wrong. And it's glorious.
Notes: FFEX 2009 Gift for [ profile] wounded_melodyEdgar x Sabin; first time, perhaps a bit of dub con or very heavy persuasion. 27,000 words
Summary: The death of a king, the future of a country, and the bond between two brothers: the story of how Edgar let Sabin go.

Squee: Okay, uh. I am pretty much guaranteed to re-rec this thing a million times because it's JUST THAT AWESOME. The author has done an AMAZING job fleshing out these characters and their history. This is undoubtedly a shipping story, but it's also a story about grief, and growing up, and it's one of those rare shiptastic stories that I'd happily push on anyone (who's not squicked by the warnings) because it stands on its own as an amazing story, period. Both Edgar and Sabin are handled excellently here, complex and whole and so painfully young and angry. They both feel real and three-dimensional and complicated — and funny. Watching Edgar try to logic his way out of the mess is... kind of heartbreaking and hilarious at once. The various warned-for things are handled so well, too — the twincest is some of the finest I've read, ever, with all the wrong wrong wrong intact and delicious. The punch at the end is satisfying and sad and a perfect ending-that's-also-a-beginning.

[Art] FFVIII - Sunset (Quistis) by [ profile] darthneko
Rating | Warnings: G, no warnings or spoilers.
Notes: FFEX 2009 Chocobo Down — FFVIII: Quistis, and the ocean, with her feet in the sand. Happy, calm and still, with or without company (Xu, Seifer, Irvine or, perhaps, Rinoa) in the background. Either alone or being watched, from her perspective or the watcher's. Additional Prompts: Coral shells, homecoming, wind in her hair, seeing the dawn and/or seeing sunsets (figurative or literal in either case).
Summary: Surf, sand, wind and the scent of home

Squee: There are so many things I love about this! The mood, atmosphere, colours — peaceful without being delicate; serene and lovely and strong. The strength is really what gets me here — Quistis looks tough and competent just standing there; I love her powerful shoulders and the gently emphasized musculature — she's a soldier and it shows. And yet there's something slightly vulnerable and far-away in her stance, her face. I love it.

[Fic] FFVIII - Colour Coded (Ellone/Quistis, Ellone/Rinoa) by [personal profile] temples
Rating | Warnings: PG for dark imagery, spoilers through late in the game
Notes: FFEX 2009 Moogle Fluff — FFVIII, Ellone, Rinoa, and/or Quistis, meta about magic, blue magic, and their connection to each other in the grand scheme. 670 words
Summary: She'd never admit it, but darkness calls louder than light.

Squee: I love the quiet intensity here, the strength of the imagery and how much comes across in such a short piece. It's dark and I love it, how Quistis and Rinoa's magics are presented differently, how each is viewed through the lens of Ellone's own abilities. The meta here is great, too, without overwhelming Ellone's presence. And, of course, I will love a story if it's Bechdel Central. This is rich without being overpowering, short but substantial.

[Fic] FFX-2 - Persistence of Memory (Paine/Nooj) by [personal profile] renay
Rating | Warnings: G, spoilers left right and centre
Notes: FFEX 2009 Gift for [ profile] owlmoosePaine/Nooj, their first kiss. Funny and awkward, or thoughtful and angsty, or leaping on each other like crazed voles, or a little bit of all three: it's all good. 24,000 words
Summary: Paine and Nooj went their separate ways, but when a mutual friend and shared industry bring them back together, they must work side by side and face their respective truths of an unfriendly parting.

Squee: Okay so, I don't really care if you like the main pairing (Paine/Nooj) at all — this needs to be read for the meta alone. Spheres! Spheres spheres spheres, pyrefly meta everywhere. This is possibly the most unique take on spheres I've yet seen. Well, okay, I lied earlier — there is also excellently drawn-out UST, and politics— politics aplenty. I really love Paine here, prickly but vulnerable, smart and capable and slowly opening up. I love how everyone was affected by Shuyin, what traces that leaves for all of them, how Nooj deals with it, how Paine deals with Nooj dealing with it. And man, when all of it comes to a head in the end, Paine and Nooj's conversation/encounter just kind of took my breath away. Hearts.

[Fic] FFXII - Necrohol (Basch, Fran) by [ profile] alimond
Rating | Warnings: G, many many spoilers
Notes: FFEX 2009 Gift for [ profile] gunshouFran and Basch. Outsiders, running away, sibling issues. Maybe awkward campfire conversations - both tend to be silent if not spoken to or offering guidance. Definitely a fascination with physical appearance. 1,181 words
Summary: We all carry secrets in our hearts. In some cases, those secrets are other people.

Squee: I love this series of short vignettes — the imagery here, the writing is powerful without being flowery or overwhelming. It's a kind of very direct and unadorned poetry; there are a number of phrases here that just punched me right in the gut. Simple but so, so effective. I love the insights into Fran and Basch here, their similarities, their differences. The mention of Fran and consumption versus discovery hit me especially hard, but I love all such moments in this story. Possibly one of my favourite takes on the two of them together.


@[ profile] ff_press: [FFXII:OGC] [personal profile] justira: Faithless By Inches (Ashe, Vossler) (PG-13) (6,350 words)

Title: Faithless By Inches
Fandom: Final Fantasy XII: OGC
Cast: Ashe, Vossler. Cameos by party cast and Larsa.
Rating | Warnings: PG13. Spoilers heavy through middle of the game, vague through the end.
Words: 6,350
Feedback: Always welcome, any kind.
Notes: Written to a Chocobo Down prompt from the first round of [ profile] ff_exchange:
FFXII: Vossler helping Ashe escape from Rabanastre after her father's death.
Thanks to [personal profile] renay and [personal profile] owlmoose for looking it over, and many thanks to [personal profile] seventhe for being there from the beginning, coaxing this thing out of its skeletal first draft.

Summary: Growing faithless, and where you place your faith.

Faithless By Inches )

Notes )

X-post: Hosted on my DW [personal profile] justira, A03, and LJ pointers on: my LJ [ profile] justira [here], [ profile] ff_exchange [here].
@[ profile] ff_press: [FFXII:OGC] [ profile] justira: Vaan and Famfrit (G)

Daily Doodle: Like yesterday's Penelo and Hashmal, this is another esper/hume match from Alchemies. Espers are so damn complicated.
Backdated 1 hr
Time: 30 mins or so

Daily Doodle: FFXII - Vaan and Famfrit )
@[ profile] ff_press: [FFXII:OGC] [ profile] justira: Penelo and Hashmal

Daily Doodle: This is REALLY REALLY REALLY sketchy, but I've wanted to try it since like Wednesday or something. So I gave it a quick shot.

I like the idea of pairing Penelo with an esper like Hashmal. I had a throwaway reference to Penelo owning Hashmal in Alchemies, and then for no real reason I wanted to draw it.

Espers are hard. They can bite me.
Backdated 2 hours
Time: 30-40 mins

Daily Doodle: FFXII - Penelo and Hashmal )
@[ profile] ff_press: [FFXII:OGC] [ profile] justira: Half a Breath Away (Vaan/Gabranth) (PG)

Daily Doodle: This is at [personal profile] renay's request, as a pick-me-up after Black Friday. Congrats on surviving! ♥ And to everyone else in retail — congrats! Thanks to [ profile] first_seventhe and [ profile] owlmoose for advice and quick once-over =)

Uhhh I don't actually have much to say. If you have no idea why Vaan/Gabranth of all things, the pairings comes from a story I wrote for [ profile] ff_exchange, These Unending Alchemies of Honour.

Also, Noah's leathers can go die in a fire.

I think I'm due for some goats soon, though, I can't keep drawing big things every day XD
Backdated 3 hours
Time: 3 hours or so


Daily Doodle: Final Fantaxy XII - Half a Breath Away (Vaan/Gabranth) (PG) )
@[ profile] ff_press: [FFXII: OGC] [ profile] justira: Ondore doodle (G)

Daily Doodle: This be my attempt at sexy beast Ondore. He has joined my smallish pantheon of flaming hot old dudes, and is possibly the most excellently dressed of that lot. I don't actually like how this came out very much; I don't think it looks enough like him. Drawing old people is hard =|
Backdated 1 hour
Time: 30 mins or so?

Daily Doodle: Final Fantasy XII - Ondore (G) )
@[ profile] ff_press: [FFXII:RW] [ profile] justira: Penelo Dancing (Penelo) (G)

PSA: THIS POST WAS INITIALLY TYPO-TITLED AS: [Daily Doodle] FFXII: Revenant Wangs - Penelo (G)

Daily Doodle: I do not seem to have much commentary in me lately! The pose is reffed, with modifications as usual. Penelo actually has like armlet thingers but I got rid of those because I liked her hand positions here too much to obscure them (mainly the left one; her right turned out kinda blah). I will eternally resent XII and its spawn for their crazy complicated outfits >(

Also, I realized belatedly that I was committing that foul I am so unfond of, the tits+ass shot... but I don't think it's too forced here. She's dancing, not trying to wield a sword twice her height =\ Still, now I owe Penelo an action girl shot =)

Time: 1.5 hours, I think. Me and my messy lines that need cleaning!

ETA: Thumbnail:

Daily Doodle: FFXII:RW - Penelo Dancing (G) )
@[ profile] ff_press: [FFXII:OGC] [ profile] justira: Gabranth/Vaan doodle (Gabranth/Vaan) (PG)

Daily Doodle: Man guys. This thing was NOT cooperating. I still don't like it but I am so done with trying to be creative today! Bad mood — unhappy with words, unhappy with arts, still utterly exhausted from this whole damn week.

This actually started out as just trying to get a handle on Noah, and then Vaan kind of happened. I'm a little distressed, because I keep thinking he can be mistaken for Balthier. His features aren't Balthier's at all (Balthier is way sharper), and I checked and checked my references and I'm pretty sure he's... fairly on-model. Fairly. I can't get his hair right. But true story, Balthier/Vaan is a pairing that, uh, more than four people have heard of, and Noah/Vaan isn't? XD (I love Balthier/Vaan, though, maybe I should draw them too just for contrast — see, see, THIS is what Balthier looks like when I draw him!)

Anyway. I just had a hard time today; I'm sorry if this is not awesome =|

Backdated 1 hour
Time: I don't even know, really off and on. Call it 40-50 mins?

Daily Doodle: Noah/Vaan from FFXII )

Daily Word Count: 380
@[ profile] ff_press: [FFXII:OGC] [ profile] justira: Dark in the Middle of Him (Basch) (G)

Hey so, I've been posting these Daily Word Count things underneath my Daily Doodles for the whole week and every day I promise I'll explain "tomorrow". A whole week later, it's tomorrow! Gosh, I wish my boss took this approach with deadlines.

Anyway. SO. I've successfully been daily doodling for about two and a half months, with 77 days and 77 doodles (counting today's, to be posted right after this). While I haven't magically become super duper awesome, I do feel like I've improved a lot, both in terms of skill and in terms of confidence. So I want to thank [personal profile] renay again for nagging me into that, because I count that as a great act of friendship: pushing me to improve myself and reach for my goals. Nay, if there are any further ways I can embarrass you publicly, just let me know =D

I'm hoping to do the same thing with words.

Now, I don't really believe in word quotas as goals. I have a lot of very tl;dr on that subject. So why am I doing quotas? Well, for me it's about habits and confidence. I angst a lot about my writing, and I need to maybe angst a little less. SOME angst is good. But I'm terribly ashamed of most of my writing, just like I used to be terribly ashamed of most of my art. So I'm trying to make myself write every day, just to get into the habit first. And to do that, I, personally, need something concrete. If I don't have a concrete goal I know I will fail. One drawing start to finish every day is concrete, and it's worked great for me. So I'm hoping word quotas can get me towards a daily habit of writing. Once I build a habit of just write, stupid, I can start refining it. Work on specific things. I'm already starting to do that with my doodles, and I have many more plans, like for theme weeks where I focus on movement, or backgrounds, or particular styles.

So here are the rules. I have to write at least 300 words every day. If I had to post words every day I would get hives and die, so for now I only post word counts (and do a tweet). But every week, I do have to actually publish something of at least 100 words — it can be something totally new I wrote that week (or that hour), or it can be something I've been working on forever and just now got edited and beta'd and polished. The important thing is to get over my fear of showing my writing.

[personal profile] renay is doing her own version of this project and she's been keeping it up all week too and I am super proud of her and also this is my revenge >P

I'm starting with nice, low quotas because again, the key is habit. I need something I can definitely do, no exceptions. Also it feels way better to raise a quota after consistent success than to lower one after consistent failure >.> And I've tried macho high quotas before. I've tried the "write 1,000 words every morning after you jog and before you have your very nutritious breakfast". (For the record, that lasted a whole week.) I'll increase my quotas in the future, just like I've been branching out with my doodles.

All of this, of course, is a very tl;dr way of saying "I'm sorry if the following drabble is balls, but I had to publish something tonight."

Title: Dark in the Middle of Him
Fandom/Chars/Ships: FFXII:OGC, Basch
Rating/Warnings/Spoilers: G, spoilers through end of game
Feedback: Always welcome, or what would be the point of making myself post >.>
Word Count: 100
Summary: There is, he tells himself, no reason to fear this darkness.

Weekly Words: FFXII:OGC - Dark in the Middle of Him )

x-post: ... no thanks. Maybe next week. Confidence!
@[ profile] ff_press: [FFXII:OGC] [ profile] justira: Drace doodle (Drace) (G)

Daily Doodle: Gosh, this is so much less nauseous-making than posting words. Suddenly I feel way better about this drawing. It's Drace, anyway; didn't turn out quite how I wanted but I feel like it's okay. I don't think I got her quite on-model.
Time: 40 minutes or so? off and on again, hard to keep track

Daily Doodle: Drace fom FFXII:OGC )

Daily Word Count: 401, 100 of them posted *shudder*
@[ profile] ff_press: [FFXII:OGC] [ profile] justira: Vaan portrait doodle (Vaan) (G)

Daily Doodle: Hey so, I don't know why I keep trying to draw portraits in MS Paint? It's probably not smart? I reffed this off a single screencap, which I hate doing, but I was too tired to come up with something original. I guess it's... okay? I'm kind of proud of it, maybe. I'm hoping it's at least recognizable.
Time: 25-30 mins? it was off and on, I didn't keep track

Daily Doodle: Vaan from Final Fantasy XII )
@[ profile] ff_press: Please list the copy that's over at [ profile] ff_exchange

Title: Introductions
Characters/Pairings: Balthier/Fran/Vaan
Rating/Warnings/Spoilers: PG, no real warnings, no spoilers
Crit/Feedback: Always welcome!
Notes: Backup gift whipped up for [ profile] ff_exchange, for [ profile] carbonatedh2o's prompt: Balthier/Fran/Vaan - Balthier and Fran in an established relationship, introduce Vaan to the wonders of... sex or something. If you don't want to do the sex part, though, that's fine.

I had, let us say, not much notice on doing this backup gift, so I had to scramble a little and ended up taking my idea from this piece of Moogle Fluff -- redrew it completely, cleaned it up, coloured it. I feel a little like a superhero. Guys, I did this in like four hours. Because that is how much notice I had. haha. yeah.

Summary: "I think perhaps we can skip certain introductions, Vaan?"


FFXII: Introductions (Balthier/Fran/Vaan) (PG )

Notes )

x-post: [ profile] ff_exchange [here], deviantart [lines] [colours], my LJ, my DW.
Title: These Unending Alchemies of Honour
Fandom(s): FFXII:OGC
Characters/Pairings: Vaan/Gabranth, Basch, Larsa, Penelo
Rating: PG13
Spoilers/Warnings: Spoilers through the end of the game. Full disclosure: canonically, Vaan is 17 and Gabranth is 36 so. Uh. Yeah. Pedobear seal of approval.

Feedback: Holy sweet jesus, yes please. For anyone who wants to give me some serious crit, I've put together some notes/concerns at the very end of the story.
Word Count: 38,500 WHAT IS THIS I DON'T EVEN

Summary: Gabranth lives, and there is nothing simple about it— not for him, nor Basch, and most especially not Vaan.

Notes: Written for [ profile] ff_exchange as a backup gift for [ profile] chaosraven/[personal profile] chaosraven's prompt Vaan/Gabranth. Post-game, Gabranth lives to tell the tale and Vaan is stuck with conflicting feelings.

OKAY UH. I have a lot of people to thank here, and also a few notes on canon, not to mention my crit notes.

A huge thanks to [ profile] first_seventhe/[personal profile] seventhe for the gamma read, the beta read, the cheerleading. This story could not have happened with you and your awesome suggestions. Another huge thanks to [ profile] bottle_of_shine/[personal profile] renay, for beta reading, putting up with my woe and whining, and staving off my panic attacks for the past week. Thanks also go to [ profile] lassarina/[personal profile] lassarina for help in the early stages of plotting and also for listening to my endless moaning. Finally, thanks to [ profile] mithrigil/[personal profile] mithrigil for the advice on language; though I didn't have time to ask for a full language beta, the advice you gave me was very helpful.

These Unending Alchemies of Honour )

Story Notes )


Crit Notes )

x-post: [ profile] ff_exchange [here] (link goes to first part), my LJ [ profile] justira [here] (not actually archived there, since I am tired of breaking this fic up across multiple entries; it just links back here),, my DW.
@[ profile] ff_press: [FFXII:OGC] [ profile] justira: Penelo celebrates! (Penelo) (G)

Daily Doodle: What is she celebrating? ME FINISHING MY DAMN STORY. Posted at [ profile] ff_exchange in five parts, starting here, and on my DW all in one post ♥.

As for the ungodly hour: I have not, indeed, yet slept, which I count as still being the previous day.
Backdated uh, 8 hours? >.>
Time: 10 mins, quickie

Daily Doodle: Penelo celebrates! from FFXII:OGC )
@[ profile] ff_press: Please list the copy that's over at [ profile] ff_exchange

Daily Doodle: OKAY now that I am done making my own gift and have resolved my time management/tablet management issues, I can start making Moogle Fluff for [ profile] ff_exchange! I put more work into this than a regular doodle, since it's for someone, but still, very much a doodle. Took longer, too, possibly because there's three people in it :P

Lots of hand issues, I think, and something about Vaan's head/face just doesn't work. But I think I like this idea enough to clean it up eventually.



Time:1h45min or so?

Daily Doodle: Balthier/Fran/Vaan from FFXII:OGC )




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