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... not coherent. feeling weak.

and why am i really and truly suddenly, out of nowhere, feeling very tired and sad?
all of a sudden weighed-down.

strange.
mindnumbing.

i made someone happy today =)
this pleases me greatly.
not locally, but remotely.

or something.

sleep, i think.

this child really needs school to end.
because school makes her severely unhappy.

because the math teachers are collectively bitches.
and now i get another full year, maybe another three years, of everyday reminders of how i've managed to screw up my life.

in other words, my math teachers wouldn't let me test out of precalc because my brain chemicals are screwed over, i can't sleep at home and therefore do it in class, and i'm a slacker.
i've always been a slacker. i was just a slacker who got excellent grades before she got depressed.

... i suck.
this depresses me even more.
how do i let things like this matter so much to me?

dammit.

stupid, STUPID.
can't i function and be depressed somewhere where it doesn't affect my future?

okay, dumb question.

whatever. i'm getting a headache and i feel ick.

sleep.

golden cherries, eyeliner, and disc =)

this afternoon was very nice.

had "class meeting" in greenroom.
we played Taboo, sponsored by Wynn.

then random silliness with drewsteve, sylvie, Cap, and emmi and Jen.

and then outside with emmi and Cap and Ben, until the females left. Ben and i played disc for a bit, then Jen joined us, then drewsteve, then Ben was talking to a girl... whose name begins with D and has slipped my mind...

then sylvie was in her corner and singing really prettily while i was looking at the driver's manual and drewsteve napped.

i wanted jicama (really yummy!) but sylvie had to go home. drewsteve drove her home, then took me to freshfields. they didn't have jicama anymore (BOO!)

BUT

they had golden cherries. and red cherries. and focaccia. and i got some of each =)

then off to my house.
except i got distracted by a dollar store. i went eyeliner-hunting.
i now have eyeliner in these exciting colors:
black (liquid)
dark blue
really pretty green
gold
white

all of which show up on me =)

and also lip gloss in clear, white, and an exciting reddish purple =)

i am not to be allowed anywhere near dollar stores for the rest of the month. nope. not allowed.


and now i am eating two types of cherries and drawing on myself in pretty colors. *grin*

*that* is a good way to waste money.