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[justira]

dammit. family saw me crying. both mother and father.

well, at least they didn't try to help. my dad was giving me back my telephone i'd put downstairs because that one had stopped working.

my mother told me she was eating her salad and that i could use her computer for a few minutes. then she told me not to get upset at her (we had an argument just before.). i asked her were the hell she'd gotten the idea that i was upset at HER and they left.

i hate it when they see me cry.

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[dance4lyfe.livejournal.com]

About the not letting out your feelings entry...I too felt like that. I guess everybody says they know how it feels, and maybe you don't believe me that I can relate in some way to you...but I DID have that feeling, and that was the point my teachers forced me to go to the guidance counselor. I stopped talking altogether. They would ask me how I was doing, and I would look at them, shrug my shoulders and whimper. I know I can't relate to the crying in front of your parents, since I try extra hard to keep my feelings inside when I'm with them. They seem to be frightened if I do anything that seems outside of my usual feelings. Looking at all gloomy makes them suspicious and snoop into my computer files, poems, diaries....But, I really don't understand how your parents could take no notice that something was bothering you tremendously about your life. Well...I care about you, if that makes anything better (I doubt it....). And, won't I be at your house in less than a week? (By the way, I don't want to bug you anymore about the summer school...but please e-mail me if you asked?) You can talk to me then...but I'm not forcing you....because I know our friendship may have been cut because of a) new friends b) new experiences or c) the lack of seeing eachother, but maybe once we see eachother again everything will be like it was before....
I'm hopeful....
*HUG*
Nikki

[justira.livejournal.com]

summer school idiots say i can't bring you to visit with me. boo =(

and thankyou.