justira | (no subject)

my mother is going to be in Raleigh, NC for a week.

i have a kitty on my lap.

and i will pass all my classes even if i get abysmal grades this quarter.

yay surfacehappiness.

i was trying to explain something to Natan about how i can appear to be happy, but... am not.
about how the things i was saying in my two frantic entries, hating myself, blah blah blah, i never stop thinking those. they're the base of what i am - always there, never changing, endless circle, etc.

but on a wholly separate layer lies my current mood.
except the two aren't separate when my current mood is sad or depressive or whatnot.

but yes.
however much sense that made.

but yes.

my throat is very unhappy with me for making it breather fumes for 13 hours.

and hope and hugs to Claire and Lindsey and Shauna!

yes.

Jo was here today!

which differs from the last time Jo was here in that i actually got to be with her a little bit.
yay alums.

Marylin (sp?), sylvie, Rosie, Jo, me.
went to freshfields, ate, got driven there and back by Jo.
yay alums with cars.

and such.

yes.

good morning.