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[justira]

another psych appt. today. lady isn't evil, just... not doing much.
but i got so frustrated with something i was trying to get across that i started crying.
well, she eventually got it. *patpat* good job, sweetie.

i seem to be rather muleheaded. i refuse to take meds of any sort or to alter my sleeping patterns. if you try to MAKE me sleep, all you will accomplish is to make me cranky and bored.

i see her logic behind "strongly suggesting" that i take meds and/or sleep like a normal human being, but i've NEVER had a normal sleeping pattern. my schedule is just naturally shifted.

anyway.

my right wrist decided to go *coughchokesputterdie* and it's been in a bandage.
and my legs are for some reason sore... okay....


institute was fun.

too bad it will be over. pampered me. got to see Meg and Dan every day, got used to it, and soon it will be back to seeing them perhaps once every few weeks. ahwell.

strange state right now. a kind of apathetic notcontentment.
geh.


lah.

need to talk.
GEH.

me = frustrated.

vaguelykindasorta giving up hope and such. la.

where the hell is Ben? we need to work on frosh show. when's he getting back from england?

geh. vaguely cranky mood, the kind that you're in when complaining/bitching except not and stuff.


laaaaa shutting up now.

(why do i feel lonely? it's not like i have a reason....)

Comments

[fallengoddess.livejournal.com]

"too bad it will be over. pampered me. got to see Meg and Dan every day, got used to it, and soon it will be back to seeing them perhaps once every few weeks. ahwell."

Yeah, it sucks. :P

If there's anything in particular bothering you...poke me. I do listen, as easily distracted and vapid as I am.

[quirty.livejournal.com]

Both my sister and dad have funky sleeping patterns (well, my dad has no real pattern perse, while my sister has a 28 hour clock...). I have a normal clock in terms of the rest of society, but if I don't follow it within about an hour of tolerance on each end, I get depressed very quickly... *shrugs* sometimes it's worth it, sometimes not. Ah well. I wish you luck.

[smashingpopcorn.livejournal.com]

eyeesh. did she actually do that...that...::patpat:: thing? ugh.

and bleagh to wrists in bandages.

sleep patterns are interesting. oddly enough, perhaps in our own control. my grandma used to tell herself at night (i heard her saying it over and over once) "remember: wake up at [time]. remember: wake up at [time]." over and over. and she did wake up at that time...always. it was cool.

righto, then. luck and joy and all. *hug* sleep well.

[badoingdoing.livejournal.com]

someday, i will make you sleep.
not how you think.
i will make some sort of object, be it food or other. then i will declare it is called Sleep. then i will give it to you.
for behold, i will have Made you Sleep.

and i need to get together with you. but i can't call you, for the directory is Wrong. what shall i do?

[indigo.livejournal.com]

sleeping patterns are fun. meds...i really don't have a good argument for that, though i understand your reasons for refusing to take them.

you may talk at me all you like. what is this about lackofhope? *pout*
keep the faith, then.

ben's kind of vanished, but he told me before he left he'd be back august 8. i plan to steal him on the 9th if he's awake. otherwise...plan! please plan! planning for shows tends to be a Good Thing.

[cap.livejournal.com]

you need to sleep. it doesn't matter when, if you get enough hours. but you don't. so you have to sleep normal hours. ask about getting a mild sleep inducing something, possibly. but you are fucked up enough w/o making things worse w/ sleep deprivation.

ben won't be back until mid august.