nuh?

[justira]

trigun = good.

otherwise... well, yeah. i'm in some sort of slump.

i think i've figured something out.

as i try to find out what matters to me and what does not, i think i've concluded that one thing that i DO value is feeling.

which is how i can appreciate depression as something beautiful though it is also ugly. it is a feeling, and a lack of feeling, especially a desire to not have emotion, is something i cannot understand.

it's also why i come to parties, and some of why i do shows - the feeling. it's quite intense during shows, both good and bad, and parties always make me sad, but that is also emotion, and it is beautiful.

happiness is beautiful. love is beautiful. tears are beautiful.

and i am making very little sense.

anyway.

feelings matter and emotion matters.

Comments

[shadowsong.livejournal.com]

on the contrary, you're making an excessive amount of sense. i'd never quite thought of it (emotion=beauty) that way before, but it makes quite a few things, a lot of artwork, for example, make sense.

[smashingpopcorn.livejournal.com]

both to ira and in reply to jo's comment:
is emotion what gives a thing beauty? are all things beautiful emotional or just some?

[justira.livejournal.com]

i don't know if this is in response to Alice or Jo or me, but if i value emotion, does that also mean that i value beautiful things?
when i say value, i mean that i can see the worth of it, i pursue it, and i find it pleasing to observe.

and i really cannot think of something beautiful that does not somehow involve a feeling/emotion. a tree under the clouds can be beautiful because it brings a feeling of peace or because the branches have twisted just so to form a back arched in tired melancholy, a tragic shape.

is then perception itself not slightly twisted? when we think of something as beautiful, are we placing value on it alone or the emotions it evokes in us?
if so, then things are beautiful in even more individual ways to different people than may have been thought before.

and should i not shut up and stop verbalising at 3 in the morning?

quite enough out of me...

[smashingpopcorn.livejournal.com]

beauty is indeed exciting, but emotion perhaps more so.

music: do you agree that it is safe to say that sound itself does not contain emotion? if i play 'Fanfare for the Common Man' (which i find extremely emotional) for my cat, she doesnt seem to care. no emotion to her. emotion is then, only upon interpretation/perception, and so synthetic, not natural. emotion doesn't exist in nature.

does explain why some people find more beauty in things/life/chocolate than others.

yes, that was going somewhere, but as you stated, its rather late (mm...black&white...). it made sense, i wrote it down somewhere else. i'll find it. g'night