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it seems i don't write very often anymore...
that is slightly silly, as i have so much... random shit going on.
usually i whine about it in lj in large amounts...
but lately, somehow not.
i still read my friends' entries... but i post comments this many often.
hm. still feeling of disconnectedness - people i felt connected to just a short while ago drifted away, and now new ones.
strange/predictable?
i wouldn't know.
been doing many thinking.
none of it going anywhere, really.
today, i was sleeping in the clinic during third. sheer and utter exhaustion.
had a dream that was very, very real.
i was awake, running around doing nonschool stuff.
then i realized that i had no memory between the time i remembered falling asleep at the clinic and (supposedly) waking up at home in my bed at around 9 in the evening.
*random shower break* time passes
i ignored that for a while, then thought about it more, then realized i was dreaming, but couldn't wake up.
and i got really, really scared.
eventually, forced myself awake.. to discover there was another girl in the bed opposite mine.
and then there was a party for the girl - lots of people in party hats and confetti. got a headache.
then Mrs. Hayes woke me up and told me Mr. Leaf wanted me back in class.
i checked the clock - half an hour.
that's twice in one dream i thought i was awake but wasn't.
makes me wonder about consciousness and such....
but yes.
entry having no point
oh well
relationships are strange
and here is something Sarah referenced to that i find rather... um... [insert cynically positive adjective]
Unfortunate Coincidence
By the time you swear you're his,
Shivering and sighing,
And he vows his passion is
Infinite, undying -
Lady, make a note of this:
One of you is lying.
heh. watch me be bitter...
i am 3 boysaredumbs bitter.
that's within this halfyear... weee.... i am slightly stupid.
*burning cd for sylvie* ... time passes
hm.
*continues burning cd* ... more time passes
hm. this entry is sortof going nowhere.
i hope i'm better today (for it is today and not tomorrow) than i was yesterday (which is really still today)
but whatever.
blah!
that is slightly silly, as i have so much... random shit going on.
usually i whine about it in lj in large amounts...
but lately, somehow not.
i still read my friends' entries... but i post comments this many often.
hm. still feeling of disconnectedness - people i felt connected to just a short while ago drifted away, and now new ones.
strange/predictable?
i wouldn't know.
been doing many thinking.
none of it going anywhere, really.
today, i was sleeping in the clinic during third. sheer and utter exhaustion.
had a dream that was very, very real.
i was awake, running around doing nonschool stuff.
then i realized that i had no memory between the time i remembered falling asleep at the clinic and (supposedly) waking up at home in my bed at around 9 in the evening.
*random shower break* time passes
i ignored that for a while, then thought about it more, then realized i was dreaming, but couldn't wake up.
and i got really, really scared.
eventually, forced myself awake.. to discover there was another girl in the bed opposite mine.
and then there was a party for the girl - lots of people in party hats and confetti. got a headache.
then Mrs. Hayes woke me up and told me Mr. Leaf wanted me back in class.
i checked the clock - half an hour.
that's twice in one dream i thought i was awake but wasn't.
makes me wonder about consciousness and such....
but yes.
entry having no point
oh well
relationships are strange
and here is something Sarah referenced to that i find rather... um... [insert cynically positive adjective]
Unfortunate Coincidence
By the time you swear you're his,
Shivering and sighing,
And he vows his passion is
Infinite, undying -
Lady, make a note of this:
One of you is lying.
heh. watch me be bitter...
i am 3 boysaredumbs bitter.
that's within this halfyear... weee.... i am slightly stupid.
*burning cd for sylvie* ... time passes
hm.
*continues burning cd* ... more time passes
hm. this entry is sortof going nowhere.
i hope i'm better today (for it is today and not tomorrow) than i was yesterday (which is really still today)
but whatever.
blah!