justira | (no subject)

early in the morning/dress your best and don't wake up/put on something comfortable/put on something warm/(masquerade)/open up your eyes to see/close your face to everything/eyes wide shut and heart shut tight/you've put on your mask for the day/one-man masquerade/life is a one-man masquerade/with your mask on you can't see/and you'd never unmask me/midday coming/paste-on smiles, tears to hide/looking on in silence/because masks don't let you cry/(masquerade)/cracking mask to fix right now/cracking jokes to hide the shame/midday come and midday gone/and you've kept today's mask on/one-man masquerade/life is a one-man masquerade/with your mask on you can't see/and you'd never unmask me/twilight in the evening/it's the hardest time of day/when you're not alive enough to matter/but you're too dead to not care/(masquerade)/and you wish the mask was not there/and you wish that you could feel/but you're blind and blinded by it/and you could never unmask me/one-man masquerade/life is a one-man masquerade/with your mask on you can't see/and you'd never unmask me/no, the mask can hide your feelings/and the mask can hide your shame/but it laughs at your emotion/and you think that you're to blame/(masquerade)/no, the mask will hide your hurting/but it blinds you to the world/with your mask on to protect you/you can never unmask me/one-man masquerade/life is a one-man masquerade/with your mask on you can't see/and you'd never unmask me/with your mask on you can't see me/and could never unmask me.

okay, i am getting ridiculous....

i am writing like crazy, and most of it sucks, and now i'm bitching at people to "STAY STILL!" while i attempt to capture their brilliant presences with a pencil and a piece of paper. that is slightly pathetic.