justira | (no subject)

many kinds of love in the world.

there is a kind of love for friends that is special.
a kind of friendship where the love is... unconditional is not the word for it, and i don't know what is... it is a love that does not expect to be returned, but is there anyways and always, there to make you smile and make you cry, and there to make you wonder why....
it is a love for a friend that does not expects anything back, even doesn't expect to not be hurt...

i can't explain it. not in words.

it is in that way that i love lalice and Benellis, may they both be happy, and happier than they are, and not be hurt too much by me.

i want to cry... maybeperhaps i will be able to? i want to cry, out of beautywonder his time, not sadness or aloneness or leftoutness.
maybe perhaps i will be able to? i need to still be able to cry....

friends. i love my friends.