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i think i've finally determined something.
the fact that i am still depressed is my fault, but i can usually keep it in check these days.
how depressed i'm feeling depends in a large part on my parents
my parents are nice people. cool people.
well, now they are.
i spent a good 5 years of my life thus far distancing myself from their influence, so that whatever they, specifically my mother, said or did, it wouldn't get to me and i would be okay.
i guess that hasn't worked.
and i know it's my fault that they even have arguments with me, because i can't be civil unless i think about it.
the fact that i am still depressed is my fault, but i can usually keep it in check these days.
how depressed i'm feeling depends in a large part on my parents
my parents are nice people. cool people.
well, now they are.
i spent a good 5 years of my life thus far distancing myself from their influence, so that whatever they, specifically my mother, said or did, it wouldn't get to me and i would be okay.
i guess that hasn't worked.
and i know it's my fault that they even have arguments with me, because i can't be civil unless i think about it.