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"why is world history like an onion? because once you cut into it, it makes you cryyyy."
this has been a strange week, in that, every day, someone said something to me that was really worth hearing. something that made me really think.
the sad thing is that none of these people were teachers. just my fellow audlobbers.
ahwell.
stayed after today to work on show with Ben, but the Zach showed up and he and Ben began the geeking process.
i like listening to intelligent people talk. i tend to not say anything, though today i spoke up sometimes, but listening to someone i respect as intelligent talk, to me or to another person, is just enjoyable.
the problem is that i can rarely join in any such discussion, as i really have problems expressing my thoughts...
i think a lot.
such a small amount of it ever gets said, what's said in livejournal tends to be my mournings, and none of the positive things that happened.
today's mood is rather calm. it's not that problems are resolving themselves, it's just that i'm forcing myself to have a life outside them.
this seems like progress.
in short, i now really wish i talked to my grandfather more. he's officially a genius, a very, very intelligent man with an incredible mind. he's an astrophysicist, and he can explain black holes and quantum anything to a high-schooler easily.
every once in a while i realize how too goddamn intelligent everyone in my family is.
my grandfather is an astrophysicist, world-famous, worked with Kip Thorne and Carl Sagan on Contact, and developed worm hole theory a great deal, worked with Stephen Hawking (whom i have met - i talked to his computer in Italy)
my grandmother is a mathematician, and a very good one. also some physics
my mother is whatever she wants to be. she has Ph.Ds and masters and engineers (between masters and Ph.D) in math, physics, something else.... she was an earthquake engineer in L.A., and when she needed a new job after she got sick of her old one in raleigh, she taught herself C++ and got a job as a programmer. now she's a department head and has taught herself VisualBasic, Delphi, Java, and a host of other computer languages. Ben, i think you should talk to her.
my father has many degrees as well and he's technically an engineer. he knows physics too well, and was also an earthquake engineer. he knows electronics too well also, and his side of the family is the creative one. my dad can draw pretty well when the occasion calls for it, and he is a VERY good technical drawer. he's a dreamer.
toooooo much talent and brains.
hoooow the hell can i live up to them?
anyway.
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the sad thing is that none of these people were teachers. just my fellow audlobbers.
ahwell.
stayed after today to work on show with Ben, but the Zach showed up and he and Ben began the geeking process.
i like listening to intelligent people talk. i tend to not say anything, though today i spoke up sometimes, but listening to someone i respect as intelligent talk, to me or to another person, is just enjoyable.
the problem is that i can rarely join in any such discussion, as i really have problems expressing my thoughts...
i think a lot.
such a small amount of it ever gets said, what's said in livejournal tends to be my mournings, and none of the positive things that happened.
today's mood is rather calm. it's not that problems are resolving themselves, it's just that i'm forcing myself to have a life outside them.
this seems like progress.
in short, i now really wish i talked to my grandfather more. he's officially a genius, a very, very intelligent man with an incredible mind. he's an astrophysicist, and he can explain black holes and quantum anything to a high-schooler easily.
every once in a while i realize how too goddamn intelligent everyone in my family is.
my grandfather is an astrophysicist, world-famous, worked with Kip Thorne and Carl Sagan on Contact, and developed worm hole theory a great deal, worked with Stephen Hawking (whom i have met - i talked to his computer in Italy)
my grandmother is a mathematician, and a very good one. also some physics
my mother is whatever she wants to be. she has Ph.Ds and masters and engineers (between masters and Ph.D) in math, physics, something else.... she was an earthquake engineer in L.A., and when she needed a new job after she got sick of her old one in raleigh, she taught herself C++ and got a job as a programmer. now she's a department head and has taught herself VisualBasic, Delphi, Java, and a host of other computer languages. Ben, i think you should talk to her.
my father has many degrees as well and he's technically an engineer. he knows physics too well, and was also an earthquake engineer. he knows electronics too well also, and his side of the family is the creative one. my dad can draw pretty well when the occasion calls for it, and he is a VERY good technical drawer. he's a dreamer.
toooooo much talent and brains.
hoooow the hell can i live up to them?
anyway.
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